Sometimes, Pandora Radio is either providential or just ironic; I cannot decide. For instance, several days ago, I was in my dorm room doing my afternoon stretches, and a song by John Mayer came up on my station of choice, titled "I'm in Repair." Perhaps you have heard it before. There was one phrase that seemed especially pertinent:
I'm in repair. I'm not together, but I'm getting there.
Do you blame me for chuckling? It just struck me as being rather ironic. While it's hard to know if I am in fact "in repair" or on my way to being "together," I'd certainly like to think so. That's what I'm telling myself in this stage of my TOS journey. I think as soon as you deny that you're making progress, you're resigning yourself to failure. So, as far as I'm concerned, I am in repair.
It didn't take long to realize how hard this was going to be, seeing as I managed to sleep through my morning stretching right away on Day 1. As a busy college student who is usually running low on sleep anyway, getting out of bed in the morning any earlier than I absolutely have to is definitely a challenge. Needless to say, waking up 40 minutes early do to a variety of stretches and exercises has not been going so well. I have only been successful 2 days thus far, and now whenever my alarm goes of disgustingly early at 6 a.m., I ask myself, very seriously, the following question: "Do you want to sleep or do you want to play viola?" When I put it in that perspective, it makes it easier to get up.
So, moral of the story, I need to work on being more disciplined. So far, the only box on my checklist that I've successfully crossed off everyday is for taking my B vitamins (which supposedly is good for my nervous system). Try not to be too impressed. :P Whenever I don't feel like stretching or sitting up straight or whatever I'm supposed to be doing, I just need to remind myself why I'm doing this and what is at stake. My Viola.
I'm in repair. I'm not together, but I'm getting there.
Gee, looks like it's time to stretch again. Ha. :)
I will defy.
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Way to go taking those B vitamins....and I am impressed. You know my record with taking meds. :) I never thought I would be encouraging you to be defiant, but I am. <3
ReplyDeleteI love the question you ask yourself when the alarm goes off; very clarifying. Also, I agree with Mom---good job on consistently taking the vitamins. New habits, one at a time. :D
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